Sunday, October 13, 2013

Bad thoughts

Pick them out and throw
drop the burdens, let them go
Collect it all and burn it up 
And walk away with your chin up.

Problems are inevitable. They are everywhere all the time. Some stem from incidents older than you can remember and some come in the form nagging thoughts. After all, like everything we control, problems too are just a bunch of bad thoughts. And can either run through them all at once or let them occupy all your mindspace. But sometimes they are important only till you have juiced-out all that you could - reason, solutions and ramifications. And what is left behind are the bones. I know its tougher to move on/away from problems than it seems, but its not undoable. In fact i feel its imperative that sooner or later this habit/way of life is learned and mastered. Coz lets face it, if there is happiness in your life, it is going to be offset with some sadness. However, i believe, if you can visualize a mental picture of your goal then you are more than capable of finding your way to it. 
A problem that seemed enormous 5 years back, isn't  a hard nut to crack now, is it ? That's the beauty of the human mind. We learn. Some faster than others. Some skip milestones and save the trouble of going through it all. And some stay stuck. Harping on the same issues and circling around the same junction. We get to choose and we do choose involuntarily. But lets not get into choices..let try to look at how to ameliorate(make better) the mistakes that fill u up with dread.

So you have an issue with a problem that you simply cant let go. You cant ignore it, wash it off or even replace it with a bigger issue. So all your energies are spent thinking about it from time to time and hoping some magical event will eliminate your "problem" and you will finally move to a better place mentally. Ha ha ha. Well you're in for a rude shock coz there is nothing magical about solutions. If you can think so deeply about a problem so complex (get into that deep a pile of crap), then you most definitely know a way out too !! Generically, its not that hard to walk off. Just pick up and move. And have the confidence that you will be moving to a place that will not have that problem. We are mortals and so are our thoughts. Is it really worth wasting all the time harping over the same issue when you can wreck your head over some other one..?

Learn and move on. But learn. Because when you take the efforts to learn what went wrong or what you did wrong, it engulfs the darkness and the premise vanishes. But if u just let it go, then some part of the problem walks with you like a shadow and eventually becomes a baggage. The words "No baggage" remind me of a traveler exploring new places and emotions with a light head and heart. Such an exhilarating thought.
Leave all the troubles, problems, misgivings and sadness behind and turn over a new leaf. Pick in and out of what you like and dislike about yourself and re-invent your being. After all life is about experimenting with yourself. Like it keep it,, don't? Leave it. 

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

A lost grip

As her grip loosened, finger by finger
the water heaving as her palm trembled
the bucket landed with a loud thud
and the liquid slowly vanished in the mud.

Her grip was not the only thing lost on her
The smile that framed her face had betrayed her
Gone was the glow, the shimmer in her eyes
Bereft of focus, gone was her sight.

The sun still dawned and days felt heavy
Gone was the flow that swallows many
a minds deep into the pleasures of hardwork
Gone was the satisfaction of a long days work.

Time ticked slowly, still enough had been squandered
ideas were plenty, but motivation not conquered
Plenty were there to play with, laugh and prosper
But the heart wanted the thing that mattered.
Grey seemed black and red... maroon
Colorful days were as if lost to the moon
Nothing could tighten the grip of her mind
to the work she so desperately wanted to find..
It got tougher to live in the confines of her mind
Even tougher to keep the positivity tight.
All she wanted was another chance
another turn, another prance
And she knew she could make it better
lasting forever, going back never.

She gathered her bucket and her patience
Once again waiting in line at the well
Her palms sweaty as she waited for her turn
To fill her bucket with some purpose again....